chilled me to the core

So, I have been thinking about you. As much as I don't want to, I have been. At this point I wish we could have remained simply a memory for one another but as far as my memories of us go, they aren't so great as to recall with any happiness.

We were terrible to one another. Horrible. Stupid. Downright Mean. Simply merciless. You were my first attempt at love and have the dubious honor of being the man who ripped the soul from my being crushing it until I was nothing and no one. I let it happen to me, I was young and in such terribly deep love -- it was a shame.

I am the proud owner of a renewed and healed soul. I was so lucky to discover what I didn't want in a man at such an early age. I am also lucky enough to have had the love of my life dropped into my heart at 19. Even more lucky to have had the ability to identify him as my soul mate and then taking my walls down long enough to let him fill my life.

He is amazing and I don't believe my own family could possibly love me more then he does. Ours is a relationship built on trust, friendship and the stuff souls are made of.

You and I were young, impetuous and stupid beyond limits. I forgive you and I hope with all my heart your life has been as blessed as mine.